Monday 10 June 2013

2nd Cancer-versary

Today marks two years since Eleanor's diagnosis. It's a hard day for us, but it's strangely okay. Kris sat down next to me this morning and gently broached the subject. Do we want to talk about? Do we want to acknowledge it? My eyes filled with tears as I contemplated how many times I was told my baby would die in one day. All the sadness and fear started creeping into my bones and then instantly vanished as something crashed in the kitchen. Eleanor. Eleanor here and now is in the kitchen and emptying the cupboards. We put sick Eleanor on the back burner and attended to healthy, mischievous, nap-skipping Eleanor - who is up to no good.

It hurts like hell to remember and we can never forget. But as the days have turned into weeks, months and now years, well, it gets easier to embrace this girl...
Eleanor - June 8, 2013


...and say goodbye to this one.


Eleanor - June 8, 2011
Although today marks the day when she was officially diagnosed, it also marks the day of her starting to get better. It was the day we committed as a family to endure the darkness of chemo and surgery to hopefully emerge in the light. It was the day two wonderful friends came to our rescue, like angels sent from heaven, and became members of our family. It marks the beginning of life as we know it, and even though it's hard, and even though no one would ever wish this on anyone, it has made us who we are and given us hope and faith and that is worth celebrating.

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